Cuba pujuk hati sendiri ye...

Sedih...
Sedih bila kita cuba luahkan apa yg kita rasa..
Bila kita react terhadap apa yg kita rasa...
Bila kita berdegil utk minta dipujuk..
Tapi dia kata kita tak nak mengalah.
Dia kata kita ego.
Dia suruh kita buat hal sendiri.
Buat hal sendiri? Apa maknanya tu ...?
Dia suruh kita buat hal sendiri dan tak perlu endahkan dia?
Maknenye dia pun sebenarnya dah tak mahu ambil tahu pasal kita?
Atau kita je yang sentiasa kene pujuk dia.. walaupun ketika itu 2-2 tengah terasa?
Sedih kan... bila kita selalu mengalah.. tp bila satu ketika kita tak (nak) mengalah..
dia suruh kita buat hal sendiri..
Huhu sedihnye...
Takpe takpe kita pujuk diri sendiri ye..
Sekurang2 nya kalau orang suruh kita buat hal sendiri, kita masih ada diri kita sendiri..
Kita cuba pujuk hati kita sendiri ye..

So much for my weaknesses

Weaknesses, is the hardest thing for me to understand, to accept and to improve. It gets even harder when we tried to change,and we changed, but somehow,somewhere in the middle, we stuck dealing with emotion and finally we went back to person we used to be.. Sighhh ... OK , and then once we made mistake and we realized how sucks we acted, the first thing that came into our mind was to ask for forgiveness to the person that we disappointed. After blablablabla .. all settled down and forgiveness accept.. blablablaaa... ONE question that arised in my head..
Am I Able to Improve My Weaknesses (again and again??)
Hurmm I think i can.. but will it be forever? or will i hurt him again and again?
Oh god i don't know
Again.. Forgive me my dear..

Am I Clueless Sunflower?

Hi ( to no one except my love since he is my only reader :P)

It's been ages (only a year.. hehe) since i've not written any of my thought over here. All these while i have been reading all kinds of blogs ( not illegal one okayy...) from entertaiment down to current issues just to understand what the hell are these people are talking about. Off course my favourite blog is still and will always be my 'Inhale' friendster blog which belongs to my love Yazrin Syakhairi. I admired his writings not only because he is my love partner , but his sincerity in expressing his thoughts and you know, the best part was definitely his movie review( which so far i most agree with .. hehe). Hurmm i wonder why he had not yet written any new review although we had fun watching new movies together. You just name it; Mokhsin, Puaka Tebing Biru,Jangan Pandang Belakang, Chermin, Zombie Kampung Pisang... not including other english movies ( but i will not state any for the moment as i want to support my local movies ;) ). And off course because of his blog also.. i started to write this blog .. hehehe :P. To my love, you are my inspiration all way long ( blink blink ;) ).
OK.. let's talk about success my dear.. what i had been achieved for the past one year??
Hurm let see..
Hurmm...
Aha..
Hurm..
Erk..
Takde laa!!
Except that i have been offered to work in an International Company named AGB Nielsen (mcm pernah dgr). Off course i required to attend an interview where i need to sit for the programming test, interviewed by the HR Manager, a system analyst and 2 swiss guys which one of them is very nice and the other one keep on looking at me without saying anything (Elleh.. observe la tu, as if). Thanks for our prayers my love.. Thanks for your support!
Alhamdulillah :) and i hope i'll do well so that they can raise my salary and i can spend the money to sit inside and drink nice coffees in Starbucks with my abg.. yeay!! ( This i promise u my love ). And i want the money to be spent for my parents as well .. (Mak ngan ayah cakapje nak makan mana.. Kari mamak kat Stadium tu ke.. kat Juara Kampung Baru tu ke.. cakap jek.. nanti saye bawak :D ). InsyaAllah ...
OK i think that is it my dear..
I'll update you more when i have more ideas to share with later on..

To my love,
Thanks for the happines and sadness we share together.
I love u so much ...

p/s: I am clueless enough to be a sunflower?? Hehee...

Take For Granted vs Take Advantage

Hari ni kita bercakap tentang "Take For Granted".

For me, I hate most of the people who have that kind of attitute. Suka mengambil kesempatan atas kebaikan / keburukan seseorang. These people are actually the "fire starter" of any kind of fights, arguments, dissatisfaction..etc. No examples required in order for me to describe, it's everywhere around us. Budak kecik pun paham agaknye maksud " Mengambil kesempatan". By the way, "Mengambil kesempatan" tak sama dengan "Mengambil Peluang" (Take advantage). Both are defined differently in a way that Mengambil Kesempatan is "-" while the latter is "+".

I really hope these people will change their attitude the way it should be. Coz it doesn;t matter how old are u, how matured you are, how excellent you are, it can attacks you .It is really irritating , painful and later becomes hatred for the "victims". And all of sudden, the"victims" will "memendam" dan later on "membenci".

And for all i know, I was one of the "victim", i became " memendam" and now i am "membenci".
Sampai bila..?
Tak tahu la....

p/s: sorry for my broken english.. hehehe

Clueless Sunflower talks about feeling

This is my 1st blog. I never did any blog before. The reason i write this blog now is to help myself to express my feeling . The uncertainty feeling that hazed around me. The regretful of unnecessary action , which results in pain for both of us. How stupid i was, for giving him a confession in which i shouldn't said in that particular moment. I should've waited until the end of his tasks .

Sayang.. forgive me sayang.. for giving u pain.
I love u with all my heart.. and i never felt it before.
I am so gratefull for having u in my life.
Sayang.. i hope both of us will be patient to go through this pain.
I miss u.. abang...
I really miss u..much.. my Yazrin Syakhairi...
11 April 2006